I read one of my friend's blog for the first time today. I don't know if she knows it, but it really inspired me. She's a wonderful writer, knows when and what words to use. It's crazy because her blog is so compassionate, full of heart and wisdom. But the craziest thing is that we're so alike, in the way we think, act, etc. And maybe that's why reading her blog motivated me to be more insightful of life and use this blogger as a tool to help me. Thanks friend (I know she wouldn't want her blog to be posted or even her name!) "You know no matter how long we don't talk, you're still one of my best friends" love you!
I've been falling off the wagon lately. I haven't been taking care of myself physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I have reasons why (due to the fact that I'm super busy), but I shouldn't let that affect me. But it did, and it does. I don't have time for anything, or anyone, even myself. I'm not taking care of my body and illnesses seem to always be a part of it. I've been moody (and no, this isn't me PMS-ing) and have too many highs and crashes throughout the day. I've been avoiding everything and I don't see my family anymore. I don't pray and that's the worse. Gr, I'm mad at myself for letting all these circumstances happen. I thought I could carry everything on my plate. But I can't, and I've been not only affecting myself but other people as well. And I'm sorry. But the first thing to ever over coming an obstacle is admitting it, and here I am, publicly admitting to the world my problems. But I have nothing to hide and everything to gain.
I got asked to prom today! Getting asked and reading that blog was the highlight of my very long and stressful day. Thanks prom date, I really appreciated it and thought it was the most thoughtful way to ask a girl!! If my stupid mood swings affected it, sorry, but you know that I loved it and I'll make it up to you!! Your crazy good, and I know we're going to have a wonderful time at prom!! Bet on it!!
I miss my best friend so much. I wonder if she's having fun at Paraguay right now, hopefully she is because it's a once in a lifetime experience!! I feel like I haven't talked to her forever and I know if there was one person who would help me out through this stressful time, it's her. No doubt. Man!! I feel like such a little kid, but I do miss her! I miss even the random babes text messages and the stupid inside jokes. A week or so more until she comes back.
Excuse the long post of highs and lows, but it had to be said.
Thanks world for letting me add my small little problem in this already problematic planet