I say I'm past it, ready to move on with no regrets. Yet this heavy ocean washes me, erases my mindset and sets it back to the beginning. I remember this very beginning. The ocean splashed me, surprisingly. I didn't know that through the darkness and depth of the ocean, there were imperturbable waves. I was in awe. I wanted to know more, discover all its different characteristics and parts. But this ocean tested me. It put me through harsh waves and it eventually led me back to the shore. I wanted to go back and immerse myself to this beautiful ocean. But I couldn't. So I stood there, distantly gazing at its beauty. I began to walk and realized that maybe, this ocean wasn't for me. That maybe, this ocean will never pull me in completely. As I leave the shore, I feel its familiar splashes and I realize, part of me will always cherish this ocean.
Break started, thank God. Need to get myself ready for the upcoming weeks. Busy bee all over again!