If I could choose two words to describe how I'm feeling it would be: overwhelmed and grateful. Sometimes people get too preoccupied living their own life that their surrounding is just a hazy blur. I completely fall into this category. I'll admit, I have my reasons of why I pursue or prioritize certain responsibilities. But crap, life really takes a toll on you sometimes.
About 2 hours ago I learned that two of my friends got into a terrible accident. A car accident severe enough to have cost them their lives. However, they were blessed that they were barely hurt. Maybe a few bruises and cuts here and there, but nothing too extreme. And that's where it gets me: We are given chances, chances that people would kill to have, and sometimes we just overlook them. And it just sucks. Everyone already knows that we've got one life to live and the few lucky chances we escape death, I wish it becomes a lesson learned. A new acquired appreciation. And what's crazy is that I was not even near the accident. As a matter of fact, I only knew about this information 18 hours after the event happened but it still caused a stir of emotion. But all the mixed feelings just became a realization.
Each day does count. Each moment is what adds color and depth to our lives. And I've only got one chance to fully add so many memories and happiness. I can't take my own life for granted, it's the only one I have.